Det's Doodles

Jul 26

not sure if i like glasses or non glasses version better; she’s supposed to be wearing glasses but i couldn’t really find a good way to stick them on without it looking super busy all over her eyes so i made a version without glasses too

this took like at least 3 hours lmao, definitely used a slightly different process than usual

i streamed this as well, you can watch the archived version here

Jul 23

made a sprite of Nonon Jakuzure to go with my mako and ryuko ones

Jun 29

Livestream over

dettadixit:

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dettadixit:

Doodles of chars for a game I thought of where you play as a fox or racoon (and both could be played in a coop thing I guess?) and you have to shapeshift to solve puzzles in levels and stuff. Might post more about it if I solidify the idea more, but the general idea is that a human comes and steals the secrets to shape shifting from the foxes and racoons (the two being big shapeshifters shows up a lot in japanese mythology), and then a representative from each clan goes to stop the human and bring back the information or something. Idk.
Eventually I’ll think up names for them.

Accidentally posted this on my main blog instead of my art blog. 

dettadixit:

Doodles of chars for a game I thought of where you play as a fox or racoon (and both could be played in a coop thing I guess?) and you have to shapeshift to solve puzzles in levels and stuff.
Might post more about it if I solidify the idea more, but the general idea is that a human comes and steals the secrets to shape shifting from the foxes and racoons (the two being big shapeshifters shows up a lot in japanese mythology), and then a representative from each clan goes to stop the human and bring back the information or something. Idk.

Eventually I’ll think up names for them.

Accidentally posted this on my main blog instead of my art blog. 

May 06

this is what happens when i don’t sleep

May 02

i live

and so does mako

Dec 30

[video]

Dec 15

things

Whenever I start focusing on a girl in preparation for asking them out, I tend to think about them before I fall asleep. Stuff we’ve done, stuff we have planned, stuff we could do in the future, ways to ask them out, possible outcomes (about 95% of which are always rejection nowadays), etc. Once I hit this stage, I tend to ignore the possibility of finding romance with other girls (despite the very real and most likely outcome involving rejection), and thus kind of give up on the idea that I could end up going out with anyone else that I know. When I finally do ask and subsequently get rejected/turned down/however you want to put it, I suddenly don’t have anyone to think about before I go to sleep. I can’t really think about the person who just turned me down because it would be really awkward already knowing that I have no chance with them, and I haven’t built strong enough relationships with other girls to really move on to someone else. Or I was close enough to them that they either figured out or I plain told them that I was crushing on someone, and so it would be awkward if I just started pushing towards them instead. I have basically started from scratch in a different friend circle after each rejection, and while I now have quite a lot of “close female friends” that I can talk to about stuff, most of whom have already turned me down (I’m now 0 for 6 over the last two and a half years), I still haven’t had someone return my feelings in what feels like an eternity. Which is definitely not helpful considering that I am basically addicted to love (and ironically enough, my birthday is Valentines Day).

So at this point my mind kind of… breaks down. Not just at night, but in general. I look for distractions anywhere I can, typically engrossing myself in anime or video games (playing Smash Bros is the easiest way I’ve found to distract myself). I lose motivation to do stuff that is genuinely productive (spriting doesn’t really count, hence why I’ve managed to post more sprites than usual lately), which definitely screwed over my grades in Junior and Senior years of high school, as I dealt with not only my first real, big breakup, but also rejection after rejection. As I fall asleep, I more often think about what I did before and during my past relationships to see if there’s anything I can do differently, which never fails to make me even more emotionally unstable. Usually it’s hard to tell if I’m really distressed about anything because I won’t want to talk about it, but I actually had a relatively explosive breakdown after my most recent rejection - something that wouldn’t normally be uncommon for me, if not for the fact that it was right in front of one of my closest friends in college. I don’t really know why it happened, considering I thought I had mentally prepared myself for rejection from the moment I figured I had stronger feelings for this girl.

So why the pixel art? I really don’t know. I thought of this while trying to fall asleep last night, and since I didn’t have anything to do tonight, I just banged it out (streamed it to a few online friends as well). It’s pretty much just a picture of me tearing up in my bed. A few plushies line one side of the bed (Perry the Platypus, Totoro, Soot Sprite, Meloetta, Drifloon, and a Pichu which I neglected to add in), and I fall asleep with two blanket-like things (my sister originally called them “memes”, pronounced “mimis”, and I use the term as well) and a 12 year old Build-a-Bear dalmatian which is the only thing that I have been able to cuddle with in the last two and a half years.

I think that’s about it for this rant. I wonder what I’ll think about while I fall asleep tonight.

Dec 09

mako is probably next but again not for a while

Dec 02

was reorganizing my room and stumbled on this doodle i made a while back

some soot sprite attack? iunno

was reorganizing my room and stumbled on this doodle i made a while back

some soot sprite attack? iunno